I am sorry

'I am sorry'... To me this seems to be one of the hardest thing to say. I stayed awake late night wondering why i did not say this to the person i had hurt that day. It would mean alot to the person and things would have been much better.

I am sorry for making you wait for me.

I am sorry for not replying your message on time.

I am sorry for slapping you.

I am sorry for cooking your unfavorable dish tonight.

I am sorry for disturbing you with my phone calls.

I am sorry for not loving you.

I am sorry for throwing spoon at you.

I am sorry for yelling at you in front of your friends.

I am sorry for not washing your clothes on time.

I am sorry for talking to "that guy".

I am sorry for not praying for you during your exam.

I am sorry making you cry.

I am sorry for not buying the vegetables which you really like.

I am sorry for waking you up at mid-night.

I am sorry for not giving you the perfect gift on your birthday.

I am sorry for reading your personal diary.

I am sorry for spoiling your ex's picture.

I am sorry for making you feel jealous many times.

I am sorry for not opening the door when you knocked.

I am sorry for making you feel despair.

The big "?"

The night so beautiful, the sky was clear and i had a clear view of stars right above me. They all looked so amazing, shining to the world. Not realizing how beautiful they were to me and many more.

Now. I wished i am one of them. They do not have diamond ring, nor they were covered with finest clothes. But they just looked awesome and one thing i noticed, they looked happy. At that very moment, i just longed to be happy. I was not happy because the past disturbed me and i could feel something was missing. I could not figure out what was it so important that time. I felt lost. Completely.

I have everything i need. More than what i need. I have my family, i have a good job, i have friends who care, i have accepted The Creator as my salvation. Then what is so important that is missing in me?