Story of me

Ka pian tirh atanga mi te ngainat leh mi tena an it em em ka ni thin a. Ka thian te zingah chuan hlutna ngah pawl tak ka nih hial ka inring tlat ani.

Ka lo thanglian zel a, mi ten min duhna leh min ngainatna a reh chuang lo.

Amaherawh chu engtik lai emawni atang khan ka hlutna a reh deuh tlat mai. A chhan hriat tumin ka van ruai thin.

Mi ten duh taka min duat dawn lai te hian min ten tlat pawl ka tawng ta fo mai le...

Ka awm dan danglam tak mai chu a chhan ka hre chak hle mai a, mihring te hi an kum a tam ang zel in ka danglam thin tih chu ka naupan lai atanga ka hriat tawh a ni.

Ka thian kawmngaih em em thin te nen pawh kan danglamna avangin kan in lungrual tlang tawh lo chu a ni deuh ber mai.

Tuk khat chu darthlalangah ka in en a, ka phu zawk. Hmul var, nidanga ka neih ngai reng reng loh chu a lo to ta mai. Ka mangang chu upa te ka pun a, anni chuan min chu e kha e sak mang si lo. Ka thla a bar a ni.

Ka hmel te a lo danglam ta hle mai. Ka naupan lai hmel eng(yellow) pit piat chu paih in, hmul var ah ka chang ta der mai.

Ka lungngaih te chu ngaiah ka nei ve ta a, tlemin ka lung a awi ve leh ta deuh. Ka hmel lo danglam ta pawh ka hrethiam ve leh ta ani.

Hun rei pawh a rial hma in danglam takin ka inhmu leh ta a. Keimah kha ka la nih ngei chuan ka in hre si. Aw! Ka va lo mak ta ngai ve mawle...

Rei pawh a rial lo tihah chuan ka hmul eng nalh hnum thlarh mai te kha a lo var ta vek mai a, ka hmel te pawh chu a lo bumro zo ta. Ka lo puitling ve ta tak tak tih ka in hre chhuak ta ani.

Tunah tak chuan mi te tana puar na leh fan na pe tu ka lo ni ta reng mai. Keimah avanga puar taka an awm theihna tur a nih chuan tiin ka nun hlu tak mai chu ka in pe ta a. Pawi ka tih em em mai chu hei hi ani: Ka bawp khing hnih pawh kham lo khawp a, ka thianpa bawp an han khel zui ka hmuh hian ka rilru a na ni.

- Hot Chick

Philippians 4:13

The world may distressed me, perplexed me, disappointed me, embarrassed me and humiliated me

But I have Jesus Christ in my life to comfort me.

So I can do all things through Him who strengthens me

He consoled me, cheered me, encouraged me, reassured peaceful in me like no one else can do. I have Him in my life and I feel lucky.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for He is with me all the way.

My life in this rotten world may go beyond our control but my soul has been rested in His presence.

Eve teasing

If I were a guy, this is one thing I will never do to anyone alive. I have come across this terrible act of eve-teasing several times after I lived in Bangalore. Some were not so bad but some of them were too bad, thinking about it makes me wanna hit any guy I see right now.

I just googled the term "Eve-teasing" and this is what I saw
1) wikipedia
2) google definition

I am surprised to see mentioning only India and Pakistan. Anyways it is India, I will talking about so it sounds perfect to me.

As far as I know, I am a girl who always get dressed decently wherever I may go. This is one reason why Mizo guys do not find me appealing (Kidding!!!). No matter how unexposing outfit I wear, if I walked alone, atleast in a day one guy always teased me. They even do that when I wear salwar also. There are times I just normally ignored them, but sometimes I even fought with them physically. The matter here is, its not just about being teased by Vai guys but the humiliating feelings which I always have and there is nothing much I can do about it.

I used to think I can do something about it, or atleast there will be someone who will make me feel better. But there is none. Here is an incident:

Today as I got down from the local bus on my way home, I walked in a footpath where many people were passing by. There was a guy who came very close to me and whispered, "Hello, sexy baby.. MMuuaahhh!!!". My boy friend doesn't even talked to me like that. I just stopped for a moment and turned around, thinking how to react. He was waiting near the roadside for the red light so that he can crossed the road. I went straight to him and asked "Do you know me?". He said "No!". "Then why did you speak to me and said such things?" I asked. He was like pretending as if he did not know what is going on. I was getting angry and said "I am just a normal girl who can feel the pain like anyone else. And I am not like what you think..." I was pointing finger on him now. A cop came and asked what is going on. I told him but he was only listening to the other guy who was talking to him in local language. I looked straight into the policaman's eyes to show that I am right and I am not afraid. He instead told me to shooo away. I felt my heart cracking as I saw the injustice act done to me. What an unfair world!!

I looked down myself till my toe. My dress was decent enough to even face Holy Lamb. Then what was wrong. It was defintely not from my side. I felt worse when I saw that guy showing me his middle finger across the road.

I am not sure if I will regret for not creating a scene and let people know even we girls have our dignity and we are made in this world not just to be a sex object for guys. The beauty and uniqueness of a woman is not that to attract guys, it is to show how creative our Master designer is.

Goodbyes

I hate goodbyes but it is one thing we gonna face as long as we are in this world. I have said goodbyes to many important people in my life. Some I met them again, and few never again.

My first goodbye was with my family before I left for Ooty to pursue my higher secondary education. I was at home until then, so it was hard but I did it without a drop of tear in my eyes.

Another goodbye followed in the next two years with whom I shared my dormitory in hostel for a couple of years. They were like a sister to me. I never got a chance to meet anyone of them anymore. I still miss them.

Conan Merry was my friend, a little more than a friend to me. He left me and our memories, heading home, never to come back. I haven't seen him again since October 2001. I cried for months missing him.

And then goodbye to Sosang after being together for five years. He made my life in Bangalore worth a living. He was my boy-friend and my best friend. But he gotta go back home, leaving me. I felt terrified thinking my life here without him and I still miss him alot.

This is the hardest part I have faced. Rebecca (my elder sister) was here with me for the past two years. I was doing fine even those days when I was alone but now I got used to that life where I can depend on her, make decisions with her, hang out with her and even a fight with her. Two years with her just went like this. We have struggled alot together, yet we still enjoyed our simple life. We sometimes have misunderstanding but never last more than an hour, that was the sweetest part of all. Now I am alone, I feel lost. I don't know when will I feel normal again and get used to the lonely life I once had, 2 years back. She soon will be Mrs. Chinzah in few months, I wish her all the best in her marriage life.

I wished all these special people in my life with whom I have bid goodbyes, a very best of luck in years to come.

Girls' night out

It was Friday evening and I did not want to waste even a minute that night doing nothing. I had no plans in my mind but I wanna do something. Its not just a weekend but it was one of the last weekend I would be spending with my sister who was here in town with me for the last two years. She would be getting married in couple of months.

My brother was out of town and my boy friend would be working late, so this could be the chance for 'Girls night out'. I called up a friend to ask for a decent pubs nearby. She gave me a couple of lists and i picked one randomly. This would be the first time I'd be entering a pub after 6PM. Pretty much excited and finally met my sister around 8.

Inside was dark and the music was loud, too loud that I can't even hear myself what i was saying. I had to communicate with my sister using messages 'cause i could not hear even a bit of what she was saying. There was nobody dancing or creating scenes or fighting or making out. I liked such places, everyone was in their own world.

We had beer, sandwich and chicken rolls. They were all reasonable with the prices except for a packet of cigarettes which would cost me big time. Thank God, I do not smoke.I saved hundred bucks.

I somehow had fun that night. I was high to even walk straight on my way back home and that was one great fun which happened to me here in Bangalore.